A Mother’s Reflection on Two Months of Absurdity

I’m back!  I’ve been MIA now for approximately two months, but I now have a quiet moment to sit down and do a little bit ‘o writing.  I have been thinking a lot lately about the way I would go about writing this post because A LOT has gone on in this family.  I thought about doing an “update,” but that actually made me feel a great bit of anxiety because I don’t really want to re-hash all the details for the millionth time.  So then I was stumped, but after talking with my father-in-law at Sunday dinner last night, I decided I wanted to do more of a “reflection” on the past two months. Continue reading

Working Spirituality into Our Family Culture

Borrowed from hpccr.wordpress.com

I am a “religious dabbler.”  This fact about my personality may make me appear to be somewhat wishy-washy in my ideas about faith, spirituality, and the divine, but I think my varied religious path has allowed me to clearly understand my experience of divinity.  I will admit, however, that the jury is still out on certain ideas such as what happens to the soul when we pass.  I digress…

Today, I really feel the need to explore spirituality and my family culture.  I have two posts up on my blog that deal with family spirituality: one about Family Ritual and another about making spirituality a priority in family life.  These two posts can give greater depth to my experience of faith, if you are interested.  Right now, my family is currently searching for a church home to further build our family culture.  To give some background into how we have come to the place we are, I will give a rough out-line of my spiritual life: Continue reading

How Do I Survive This?

Borrowed from huffingtonpost.com

I am OVERWHELMED.  There is quite literally no other way to describe what I am feeling on a day-to-day basis.  It was one thing when I was trying to settle in to a new routine with our newborn and our two year-old, but now our family is coping with medical conditions in both boys.  Life is not simple for our family right now, but I am doing my best to keep it as simple and non-traumatic as possible. Continue reading

#getoutofmyuterus

If you follow me on Twitter, you know that I used #getoutofmyuterus quite a lot near the end of my pregnancy, and we finally had little baby Owen on August 20th at 10:45 a.m.  I just missed my birth center birth by hours, but I still had a beautiful intervention-free birth at the hospital. Continue reading

Seizures? Are You Freaking Kidding Me?!?

Borrowed from nwkpsych.rutguers.edu

O.K. folks, time to slow down with a serious post.  Since February, we have been dealing with my little boy potentially having a seizure disorder.  He had what appeared to be a seizure in February, but since there were no other symptoms associated with the episode, it was kind of written off as just potentially being an anomaly.  Then, he had another seizure-like episode in June.  After this, we went for an EEG which came back completely normal.  This is when we entered the “wait and see” period of his medical life.  Then yesterday, he had another episode and the doctor said what I described sounded much more like a true seizure than before.  Things are now moving pretty swiftly with this rather unnerving medical problem. Continue reading

Art in August – Descent: The Mind of the College Educated SAHM

A blogging compatriot of mine over at Laptop on the Ironing Board, has started a fun creativity project for everyone to join in on.  She has dubbed this event: Art in August.  For background on her inspiration for this event, read Resolution and Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

The basic idea is for those who are participating to create something once a week during the month of August.  I decided to join in because creating is fun and is a good activity to help give your brain a workout.  Today, I decided to sit down with my two year-old and his art supplies and create.  This is what I came up with, and I dubbed it “Descent: The Mind of the College Educated SAHM”:

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This lovely little piece of preschool artwork has been the inspiration for a piece of writing to come at a later date.  Spending hours interacting with a two year-old and teaching him letters, numbers, shapes, and colors has clearly addled my brain and taken its toll on my creative mind.  I think next time I will put down the crayons and stretch myself with some mixed media.  For all of our sakes.

I Need a Fix: A True Confession of an Organization Junkie

Borrowed from diyhshp.blogspot.com

I have a not-so-secret love affair with the Simple Mom blog.  I love reading everything on her blog about slowing down and really being in the moment, and, of course, everything to do with organization.  Her site is dedicated to living simply, and I love that.  My family has not actively decided that “simple living” is something we strive for, its just kind of the way we are.  Both my husband and I grew-up rurally so we tend to have a different outlook on life than some of our more sub-urban/urban counterparts.  It also helps that we have to live on a budget so its pretty impossible for us to become overly driven by consumption and the proverbial need to “keep up with the Jones’.”  However, we are not idyllic farm-folk who need nothing more than to look out over our rows of corn to know true happiness.  We need reminding of the important things once in a while, and, for me, I can get that reminder through the wonderful pieces of writing found on Simple Mom. Continue reading

How to say “I Love You” on Father’s Day

Thank you Dadgitated for your Mother’s Day post that gave me that idea to do this!  It is so true that I am at a loss for what to do to really celebrate the greatness that is my husband and son’s father.  Should I cook him a special meal?  Well, I do that every day.  I suppose I could do a load of laundry for him since I haven’t done that for many years now, but that just seems silly.  I could do one of his chores, like mowing the lawn, but since I’m going to be birthing yet another one of his children in less than two months, that seems ill-advised.  I always make sure he has thoughtful cards and we typically BBQ with his family, but how can I really make him feel special and appreciated?  Embarrass him on the internet, of course!!! Continue reading

So you want a natural birth? Get in line!

Borrowed from abcnews.com

With all of this “taking it easy” that I need to do to stave off a complete meltdown in these final weeks of pregnancy (7 weeks for perfect timing, 5 weeks for my preference, and 9 weeks based off of past experience), I have had some time to reflect on my last birth experience.  Sharing your birth story seems to be all the rage in mommy blogs, forums, and other birth-related venues so I thought I would give it a try.  The moral of my story is that when people tell you that you can’t plan/expect anything in birth, you should listen.  It is great to have an idea and a plan (it’s good to feel you have control over certain aspects), but the reality is that you really never know what’s going to happen when it’s time for your little one to emerge from your nether regions. Continue reading

Mommy Guilt? You Bet Your Ass.

Borrowed from glamomamas.com

For those of you who do not know that much about me, I have an extremely active 2 year-old boy and am due with number two in 59 days (August 9).  I am a stay-at-home mother and, sadly, am admitting to being a sufferer of “mommy guilt” and, as a result, may have cause my own meltdown at a birthday party for a 1 year-old.  Awesome.  I have always been a bit of an over-achiever, though I have mellowed-out over the years.  I am less of a perfectionist than I used to be and can tap into my coping “tool box” when I really need to (read: I have seen MANY therapists).  However, I do keep a TON to myself and my bitch-fests with my girlfriends seem to be few and far between.  This is a pretty good recipe for a meltdown, but I digress… Continue reading